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The Decision to Desert


Marta describes the difficulty of life as a guerrilla and her process of leaving the organization.


I felt that life in the guerrilla was difficult. I told my dad, "I'm leaving, dad, I can't take it anymore, I feel like they're going to kill me." Some bombs had already fallen near me. Some shrapnel had also fallen on me and I thought maybe I was going to get killed soon. I didn't feel very capable. A piece of shrapnel fell on my head and another one on my foot. It fell right here. So I decided it would be best to go home. I lied so I could stay home, because I didn't feel capable of being out there. I stayed at home and told them I wouldn't go out anymore, that I didn't want to. But they were stubborn and said they would take me back. But I didn't want to do it. I joined the organization when I was fifteen to take the healthcare course, and I spent all those years in the war. It was a very long time before I came home. When I came home I was 19 years old. I had already lived through the tragedy of being wounded. I had already gone through all that.